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Here's the thing, if I'm having a hard time I probably wouldn't blog about it.  Most things in my life are good and I choose to focus and capture those moments, but if someone were to ask about the whole picture than they would get much more than is ever posted on this blog. For example take a look at the above pictures.  One may see very happy faces.  I see something a little different.  Let me just keep it real and tell the other part of the story behind those pictures because today it may make me feel better to sort things out in blogland.  Let's first start out by saying I am drug free.  That's right nada, nothing, nunca.  I thought I better establish that first because I get many reactions from people that allude to them thinking I must be taking a little somethin somethin or thinking I need to start taking something but whatever which way I will take ownership that I could be part crazy.  

To preface I have been a little extra frazzled as of late.  I can't seem to get my head above water. I guess I've also been feeling guilty because I don't get my kids out in the sunshine enough so I loaded all of them up and took them to the park by myself.  I even brought my camera along just in case I had a spare moment.  Well let's just say that after we got there I quickly got over the fact that the boys were eating sand.  I had bigger fish to fry with one running into the street every minute, the other who wouldn't quit crying, two girls who wanted to be pushed on the swings and oh let's not forget the other baby who became "attack baby" on an innocent bystander.   I was seriously hoping I didn't break right there on the spot.  I finally just put the boys back into the stroller and pushed the girls in the swings but only after they got a quota.  What kid gets a quota of 20 pushes on a swing?  I did manage however to take a few photos of the girls before we left but none of the boys.  I'll tell you what on our way home I didn't really feel glad about taking them. I didn't really feel glad until I downloaded those pictures and saw M & M's smiling faces.  This is why I blog.  It's good for my little soul to focus on the good things that have happened and to have hope for a new day.  I still feel frazzled and overwhelmed but I think we're going to make it.  

Now excuse me while I go get a tissue.  



One of my most favorite things is walking. I love it when Mister is home. He is really good @ pushing the other stroller. The above just illustrates a perfect Sunday afternoon.